SO crazy!
this week was excellent, among others, and i was definitely challenged in many aspects, making it not only an awesome week with an awesome group, but also a week for me to personally grow and experience some new things.
i'll start off with the first experience of my week before the group even got there.
over the summer, we've been going to churches all across the area to spread ARM's name as well as to worship in different types of settings. we have definitely seen our fair share of interesting services, such as speaking in tongues and being blessed to the point of falling on the floor, but we were beginning to start going to the church that was going to feed us on family dinner night.
so, this week we went to a united methodist church in the town over. of course we all thought nothing of it, as it seemed like your average small town methodist church.
but, things began to get a bit controversial right away.
the pastor began reading scripture, of course i don't remember the verse, where paul writes about how all those who are sexually immoral, greedy, lustful, what have you, and homosexual, will not 'inherit the kingdom of god'.
i'm sure at this point, i don't quite have to go into details. honestly, just think of the most hate filled, stereotypical, and judgmental sermon against homosexuality and that was what this man was preaching.
now, i understand that we all come from different backgrounds, and this issue is kind of a new thing many people thought they would never have to deal with.
but to preach a sermon about it and claim that all those who fall under this category will be condemned to hell no matter what? i wish i was exaggerating, but this sermon fell no short of saying just that.
and then, just to make it even better (please excuse my bitterness that i feel is being conveyed through my typing), he went on to talk about how new york just recently passed to allow for gay marriage and how he felt disgraced to be from that state. and that if we weren't going to put up a fight against it, it will happen in alabama and in the other states. that we all must fight against it in order to make things right.
we must fight against our own people?
i never would have pictured myself being in a place like this. a place of worship preaching all about hate.
i was literally brought to tears when we all finally got back to the car because i couldn't believe how much hate was being given off at this one place.
as i said before, i can understand how we all have differing opinions on issues like this and it's okay, i respect that, but to preach an entire sermon on how we must fight and basically hate others?
are we not called as christians to love and accept others, no matter who they are or what they may do?
and he just completely ignored that little part in the bible that mentions grace.
i was just so astounded that a man who is supposed to represent open hearts, open minds, open doors would say such hateful things about a group of people.
i guess i was just so shocked that this actually happened. i mean, you hear about it all the time, but me actually sitting through it? i never would have guessed it.
again, this issue is definitely new, and we are all raised to believe certain things, or may all have differing opinions. and that's totally okay, it's how we all grow as individuals and as a society.
i had just hoped that as a christian community and as a body of christ, our main goal would always be to love.
would always be to show to agape love god has for us to others.
to reach out with our hearts, not our minds, and to always embody the nature christ was able to show.
in the end, i think the experience had to have made me grow. i was shown that i am confident in the beliefs i have, and i know what i find most important to my faith.
i just pray that as christians we can all walk in a faith full of love, not hate. and show how we want to live with this love and live with an attitude of acceptance like jesus did.
anyways, after church, we all went out to lunch and kind of "debriefed" everything a little, and got back on track onto preparing for our next team.
this week i had my own site for the first time, and i was so incredibly nervous. you have no idea. haha
i kind of loose a bit of confidence when i know i'm going to be under pressure, and i wanted to make a good impression for arm as well as our staff; that we knew what we were doing and everything would run smoothly.
so, i planned out of project on saturday, without too much help i might add. haha. and got ready for everything i could!
so, the week commenced.
and it went better than i ever could have imagined.
i loved my group! we had a good balance of work and fun, and i loved being able to be on site with them everyday and get to know them better and better throughout the week.
for me, that's what i love the most about having different teams coming in every week. i technically don't have to stay on site with them everyday, or even work with them everyday, but i feel it makes the experience so much better for me and even the group. this week i especially realized how much i love that interaction, and hope other people can see the importance in it as well.
for the week we had one big project plan, accompanied with two smaller projects if the week went as planned. and, because my group was so awesome (i believe i have the right to brag) everything went right on schedule and we were able to complete all three!
there were only a few minor bumps in the road, such as the blue truck breaking down on me AGAIN. our running score is currently
old blue: 3, ashley: 0.
i told everyone after the first time it broke down i would never drive it again. but then i did, and it broke down once more. so i continued to say i have the worst luck and shouldn't drive it, but ended up with it again, to only break down in the middle of an intersection. i think by now everyone has finally gotten the hint that i should never step foot in that darn truck. hahaanyways, minus the truck incident, my group was able to build a porch, fix two doors and a window, and paint the outside of a house, a bathroom, and make and install shutters!
it was such a successful week, and this group truly stuck out to me.
another thing in week made me think about what being on staff for arm another summer.
i mean, i definitely need to make it through july first, but this experience has been nothing short of amazing so far. all the little stresses aside, i have learned so much and been able to meet so many different beautiful people, that i feel wouldn't happen in your typical summer job.
i have been able to do what i love, which is basically missions, all summer long, and have found a place where i feel i could be sustainable and return.
my group was able to go back to the house they worked on last summer, to see everything that was finished and visit the family again.
when i saw this happen, i had to hold myself together a bit because i was just so amazed to see them be able to go back a year later and visit with their family like nothing had ever changed.
this is what it's all about! a change that's sustainable, something that never ends. something that you can return to every summer. a place where you can reconnect with people and continue to further your mission.
it has been my developing goal for college and for my life to be a part of something sustainable. something long term. a mission that i don't go to just once, or just for a week.
after my second trip to guatemala, i knew i wanted to continually go back.
i knew there would be a way for me to figure out how to go back every year and continue the connections with the people i have there.
and now, i'm spending my summer at arm and i want to be able to continue the connections i'm making.
whether it's with the families, or the youth groups who are coming back next summer, or just even knowing the area, i want to be able to come back and have the second experience. or even third, or fourth. who knows.
i just remember how amazing it was being able to return to guatemala,
and i want to be able to spread that to arm.
i know i have had a lot of things planned for my summers, and i haven't made any definite decisions yet, but it has been a huge thing to think about and a big thing for me to try and sort out.
we are all called somewhere.
and maybe i am being called to this certain somewhere.
for more than just one summer.
but, i know god will lead me to that answer i'm searching for, and i will figure it out soon enough.
and now for the fun part! pictures :)
the finished porch!
our wonderful team :)
jsumcy!
the best construction team you'll ever meet:
of course, john got pied again.
and, the funnest yet most frustrating pool game known to man: skittles
4 weeks down, 3 weeks to go.
and so we continue :)